This Week - So Far!

I still stumble when it comes to Wednesday and am heading home from Scotland! I get to Glasgow Central station and the Thornton's is just too tempting. Partly it is tiredness, partly it is me rewarding myself for coping again with another week away from home, partly it is me just fed up with living with pain and not being able so see a way out of it. As my weight has reduced I do seem to live with less pain, but then you get complacent and are less prepared for the next bout of arthritis pain.

Excuses, I know, I should just admit that I have low will-power, low resolve, and am still dealing with my ingrained desire to reward myself (good or bad) with chocolate.

No matter how much I plan for this weakness I can still exceed whatever I allow myself (I think that is part of the game we play with ourselves sometimes). You can plan for overeating but the devil in your head wants to be really naughty, not planned naughty. I will have to think of some new tactics to get over this because when I reduce my checks it will be even more difficult to maintain weight loss.

It has been a good week so far because I have not fallen out with anyone, been sick, felt the world was against me, or had to deal with stupid people. I really must look for positive reasons why I have good weeks, such as exercising every day (not), taking up a new hobby (not)!

I did have a real treat on Saturday morning (no not that!), I had an Indian Head Massage. Very relaxing and made me feel tall, long necked and slender for the rest of the day. I have booked a Reflexology session with the same lady for next Friday. I cannot wait.

I may go to Tia Chi next Friday morning as well, there is a class in the village. This may be my only chance to go and give it a go, as I may be starting work in Birmingham from Monday week. That will be mostly full-time (down Monday, back Friday).

I feel apprehensive about the Birmingham assignment. Have I still got the drive for the very senior position I am taking on? Have I got the stamina to cope with the travelling and walking? Have I got the willpower to cope on my own for another 2 nights? I will miss my OH very much, especially as we are renewing parts of our life that have been dormant for so long.

Oh well, I can only but try!

I will be getting a new Dietline mentor. My current lady is retiring. I feel, especially on the 2nd set of 12 weeks, that we really developed a good rapport, so I am concerned about starting to develop that rapport again with someone else. The other issue that concerns me greatly is that the new lady has different hours that do not easily fit in with my working week, if I cannot find agreement with her over the call in times I will have to ask for someone else. The older I get the less easily I find I cope with change.

Fingers crossed for a good weight loss tomorrow on weigh in day.

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