Weekly Update

I am now beginning to deal with my 'binge' eating on the days I am working away from home and away for 2 nights. I have planned in 2 days of 'feasting' and then reduce my check allowance for the rest of the week to bring my weekly total into balance. This has helped my lose 10 lbs in the last 3 weeks (4 lbs, stayed the same, 6 lbs). I 'feast' on the day of travelling up and the day of travelling back. The 6 lbs was this Monday, I am so pleased as I am now in a different stone - I am now 21 stone 10 lbs. A total loss of 4 stone 6 lbs - is that not brilliant!!!

On the day of travelling back I am usually very tired by the time I board that train at Glasgow Central and know that I will not get my tea until at least 9.00pm. The travel back day is when I allow myself sugary treats and crisps.

The weekends are not to bad as I am with my OH, which makes me happy, and means that I do not crave food. I have fun by experimenting with new recipes from my Scottish Slimmers cook books.

My shape and face are changing, I am so pleased.

Added to this, I have more energy and this week I actually went swimming on Friday night with my OH. I wanted to swim non-stop (aerobic) for 30 minutes, but could only manage 15 minutes. Maybe 30 minutes was too ambitious considering that it is years since I last exercised energetically.

I have also become more regular at doing my physio exercises to help my mobility. I do at least 30 - 40 minutes of toning and strengthening exercises for my knees and lower back 5 times a week. I think that has helped to tone me up in my tummy, bum and thighs!

My strongest motivation at the moment is to try and be as fit and energetic as possible for our pending holiday to Antigua and the BVIs. I am worried about how I will cope with walking around, coping with the hear, and (more worrying) climbing into/out of and around in the dingy to tender us to shore from the yacht in the BVIs. I have managed it before, but never at this weight. The nearer I can be to 19 stone something the better I will feel. This has really spurred me on. I just hope the holiday will spur me on more afterwards and not leave me feeling fat, frumpy, and humiliated.

To ring the changes to the Scottish Slimmers healthy positive eating plan I am following, I try to integrate a new recipe each week. This week it was Beef Chow Mien - brilliant. Last week it was Herby Sausage Balls and tomato sauce - tasty, if a bit faffy to make. I also fill up on the free soups, which have now become a staple everyday when I am at home.

I have several interim assignment job offers at the moment for when my current consultancy in Scotland comes to an end, but they are in London and Birmingham. I am afraid as they will be full-time for at least 6 months as they are all to fill posts that are being recruited to. If I find 2 nights away from home difficult, how will I find 4 nights. Also, each position will have to be assessed by me and my OH for ease of access - any great walking or stairs are still a major barrier to me. I am caught by needing to earn to keep a roof over our head until my OH has a permanent full-time post, and between wanting to concentrate on improving my health and spending more quality time with my OH.

And talking about quality time with my OH, for the first time in years I instigated our love making yesterday and felt brilliant and confident about it. Now that I am letting go of my anger and guilt I am becoming a genuinely happier person with more real confidence in myself. My OH loves the me I am turning out to be.

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