Downsizing

I am downsizing more than just my body! We are making arrangements to empty our family home after all these years. My o/h and I are starting to make the mental break from this as home and look forward to becoming footloose and fancy free.

I won't say it is easy, because it isn't. I look forward to coming home when working away all week, but I spend so little time here anymore and it is a financial cost that I could divert to other things in my life - like travelling.

We were planning on what we would take with us to France, what we would give to the girls, and what we would skip/give to charity/car boot or leave in the loft when the house is let out. Letting go is so hard! I owned up to my o/h how sad I felt and he admitted to feeling the same, but said that when we were together anything seemed managable and he felt more right about our decision than anything.

Well, we have started on the loft today - emptying out nealy 30 years of possessions ready to put in other things we may really want to keep!!

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BVI's Underwater

Click on the post title and you will be taken through to my youtube video photos from my holiday.

We have been back from the Caribbean for a week. I found last week really hard as I was straight back to work whilst trying to get back into my normal time clock - really hard!! Anyway, to make me feel good I have set up an underwater BVI photo video to remind me of how excellent the snorkelling is there. I hope it makes you feel as positive as me to watch it.

Football!

I went to my first football match in years today. The anticipation during the week was exciting! Getting ready for the match and walking up to the stadium with the hordes of eager supporters anticipating a victory to take us to the new Wembley Stadium gave me a frisson of pleasure.

It was a lovely sunny day with a blue sky which sent the spirits soaring, even though it was cold.

Within 10 minutes of the match starting everybody's hopes began to sink, except the away supporters! By the end of the match I knew why I had not been to a game in over 30 years - the anticipation soon flounders on the alter of bitter disappointment when your team lose, and lose badly because they forgot to get out of the starting blocks from the first kick off.

Oh well, back to snuggling up with a good book or an old movie when the OH goes to the match next time.

Oh, which team was I supporting? Middlesbrough, in the Premiership. Which team won through to the semi's of the FA Cup at Wembley? Cardiff, from the Championship!!!!!!

I did have one scary moment - I had to go through a turnstile! It went from ankle high to way above my head with close bars. You entered into what appeared to be a quarter circle space and pushed it round. About half way round I thought I was going to get stuck and face a really embarrassing moment - stuck half way round, trapped between iron bars, in front of 38,000 football spectators. Well it was my lucky day, having lost over 4 stone I pushed through and out the other side without getting stuck. As elder daughter remarked, who was following behind me, 'you couldn't have done that last year!' How true! I think I would have run the other way on seeing the turnstile last year.

I must remember the experience as an achievement for 2008.

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Fat Blob Worries!

I am off to Antigua and the BVI's in April. I am looking forward to it, honestly. Except that I am really, really worried about how a fat blob like me is going to cope getting in and out of a dingy to get to the shore from the yacht when I am in the BVI's. The thought of it is really beginning to get me down and take away the joy of anticipation of the holiday. I wish I was more mobile. I wish I could have lost more weight by now, after 14 months. I know I am going to feel worse and worse as the holiday approaches, and all my OH keeps saying is that we will find a way to cope. If only I could believe that.

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