I was 366 lbs on the 4th January 2007 and on the 7th July 2007 I was 329lbs - I have lost 37 lbs, just over my 10% target.
Target 1 has been achieved.
Target 2, to lose weight for my renewal of vows in Rome was achieved.
Now to work towards target 3, being less again when I see Aida in Verona at the end of August.
After dithering around for over a month gaining and losing 2 or 3 lbs, I got my self organised again and kept focused. I avoided the sandwich and cake trolley at work and took in a drawer full of healthy, low fat and low calorie snacks. When I wanted a sugar burst I had a pot of 0% fat, low sugar, low calorie jelly (10 calories) to take the edge off my desire for something sweet.
What success, I lost 8lbs this week (probably mostly water again), but hey I still feel better for it!
I shall have a 10% party day today, more low calorie, low fat treats! I shall also award myself my 10% present, an Agent Provocateur perfume set I bought just for this occasion. Maybe I will even make advances to hubby for a change, as a new body shape emerges a new more adventurous person is may also be emerging!
Watch out for next weeks update.
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2 comments:
Dear Yo-Yo. I'm a Danish woman, 31, I live in the States right now. I've just read your entire blog and am very touched by your life and your story. I wish I knew you, I'm sure you're quite an amazing person.
How strange it is for me to read about your weight concerns, and your self-awareness of carrying old guilt and shame. I recognize a lot of your situation in my own life.
I may only be ten pounds overweight, but that doesn't keep the eternal selfblaming at a much better level. The feeling of belonging better in self accusation than in self satisfaction is scary. And I'm sure, for me, that that is why I always stay ten-twenty pounds overweight. To be sure there's something to loath intensely for a minimum of several hours every day, a constant concern and shame of appearance and my physical presence. I know it, and I regret it, but for 15 years, I can't change it. The fear once the weight occasionally starts dropping off, a deep, blurred unsafe feeling of being successfull and too attractive. And the lost pounds are gained again and the self-loathing world balance is restored. It's a life project of mine to accept my body and respect it. To soften the hard feelings towards myself. To learn, why I shouldn't deserve a happy life in a slim body. To grant myself the forgiveness for my imperfections that I easily give others, but for more or less known reasons keep from myself. To let sexuality blossom and not be stuffed away and daily eaten down below zero.
In my experience, the body follows the mind. A good thought easily takes a good action. But an action that goes against the thoughts and feelings will immediately be reversed. It's too dangerous. Are you supplementing your diet with any kind of therapy to make the feelings come along and take your heart with you on your journey to a lighter body?
Anyway, congratulations on your outstanding results so far. I admire you for what you do, and thank you for writing about it. I will bookmark your blog and try to follow you. All the best wishes and expectations for your body and soul, Tine
Thank you tine b for reading my blog and understanding what and how I feel.
I have have been 2 cycles of counselling since 2001 but just as I start to get somewhere with it I run away from it. Fear has stopped me from digging too deep, I fear I will not be the same person.
I use my blog and a 'diet buddies' group of my closest friends to help me now. After a month of not achieving my goals my diet buddies started to e-mail me, phone me and call round to see if I needed help to carry on. When I do well I get positive comments to help me along the way.
I wish you well on your journey.
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